Dreams

mines never make since..it be like looking 15 minute segments before it jump to something else..outside of the fact they usually end crazy which causes me to jump out of my sleep just be like wth most of the people in my dreams be people i haven't talk to in years and i mean years.. some being kids i went to elementary with and that was 10+ years ago.. last night dream all i remember was me, my mom, and some random white guys were in a car on one of them interstates where its just field and then we practically went thru a light and ended up at some school Arizona where my cousin Biaggi was and her sisters..and then out of no where my Aunt Moon and her youngest daughter Angel was there... ehhh i need a dream book

Today has been a very emotional day for me. I always feel like i'm at war with myself. I have no inner peace... why!? i knew, i would have done something to correct the problem like asap. I'm just not happy with myself or the situation I've have been in since 08.. i mean something's have change since then but the major issue has not... The reliability of others is fading fast and my self confidence is somewhat low but on that I've come to realization that you can not truly think for yourself until you're by yourself.

Side Note: Alicia Key's Un-thinkable has been stuck in my mind all day


download it here

soo yea...

i figured it was time to dust the cobwebs on this blog.. since i discovered tumblr i kinda forgot about it, but i'm back ^_^. i'll leave tumblr for my random pics and etc of stuff i like and use this for all my personal thoughts and ish like i been doing.. so on that note let's get shawty *jeezy voice*

christmas tidings

Merry Christmas!!

I was suppose to be in memphis in a hour or so but I'm still in chicago. Currently walking thru Food 4 Less with my mom as we speak. LOL! Umm not really in the holiday sprit I'm never really am to be honest.I been thinking about getting some new piercings. I want a lip ring definitely. The past two days I been toying with the idea of getting nipple rings.
I been watching vids on youtube and talkn to a few friends about it. I think I might get em. Well guess that's it for now. I'll be listing all my fav things from this year (albums, mixtapes etc). xoxoxoxoxox

POW I'M BACK!! LOL

Happy bday mom!!!!

Oh em gee blog how I missed thee! Lol no seriously its been times where I just needed to sit down and write my thoughts. So much has happened but now it's like water under the bridge. So no need to bring it up eh. But yeaa I been outta town since Nov 15th. I'm currently in Chicago (still). I head out Christmas Eve. I been without a comp that's why I haven't been posting. I'm posting now from my blackberry. If I known I could have wrote reg post, I would have done so already. I thought I could only email posts in ands that's wackkkk. Lol. But chea just checkin in for now. Our previous schedule of posts will return shortly.

oh yea my bday JAN 17TH bwt :)